I thought everything was getting better, I thought I was moving on and heading in the right direction. Then one bad day sets me back one hundred steps, I feel lonely, anxious, angry and scared of the future.
After my horrible breakup and the loss of the baby, I thought I was dealing with things really well, I haven’t been going out partying and fucking around, but I have been talking to various guys as bad as it sounds I want to feel wanted, like I matter, like I am actually worth something.
As I sit in my house, sipping on my bottle of rose wine which I told myself all day I wasn’t going to get as I don’t want to rely on drink but it makes me feel good. I have been trying to avoid going out in my local town encase I bump into people I don’t want to see.
Why is my head fucking with me so much!